The Struggle is Real
I’m gonna start out by saying it has not been easy since I left camp. There have been successes and there have been setbacks, but I know they are all there to help me grow. It has been 7 months since camp and I have to say, it feels like just last week I was saying goodbye to some of my lifelong friends.
One of my biggest fears leaving camp was going from a controlled safe environment with support 24/7 to going home where I have temptations and have to use self–control and dealing skills.
During my last BC session we went over my fears for going home and not only was I scared to be in a different environment by myself, but I was scared that even with all the support and skills I learned I wouldn’t be able to succeed on my own. We talked about things I could do to set myself up for success.
So one of the first things I did when I got home, after seeing my friends and family of course, was set up a gym membership and go grocery shopping to have healthy foods surrounding me. That what helped me get set up for an easy transition.
For the first few months after camp I was doing great. I was eating great, exercising 4-5 day a week and I was maintaining my weight. After a few months I stopped exercising as much and started to go back to my old habits. I was snacking a lot and not watching my portion size and really, I was just pushing aside everything I had learned to do in these situations.
At this point I was struggling with balancing everything in my life, like school, social life, and mental health and I was just putting my health last. I ended up gaining about 15 lbs back.
About a month ago I realized that I need to pick myself up again and ask for help because I couldn’t do it on my own. I thought it was best to start again slowly so I don’t get overwhelmed and I don‘t overdo it.
Getting Back on Track
I started by changing my diet.
I went vegan!
This was a crazy change for me since I usually have meat and eggs and dairy in almost all of my meals. I was excited to try something new but I knew it was going to be a challenge to keep it up and not eat off my plan.
The first week of this I meal prepped and went to the store and got everything I needed to succeed. I’ve got to admit, it’s pretty hard.
After about two week I realized I need more protein in my diet and less carbs so I started to cut down on carbs and added eggs. This helped a ton!!
Cut to now. I recently joined a new gym that has so many different things to try. It has kickboxing, cycling, and cardio classes and it’s pretty cool! It’s great to be able to mix it up sometimes. It’s called Red Effect if anyone wants to try it out.
I’ve gone over a bump in the road and I’m starting to get back up. For anyone reading this that is struggling, just know you’re not alone and that you have so many people around you that are here to help. I’ve gone back to using what I learned and I’ve learned that it’s okay to ask for help.
I’ve got a great support system from my parents, friends from home and from camp as well as the staff from EW. And to any campers that are struggling or just need someone to talk to I’m here always!